Feeling Unprepared

How many times in my life have I felt unprepared?

Probably,

umm....


EVERY SINGLE DAY since I started school.

Well, fine, I don't remember exactly how it was in first or second grade - but it definitely feels like that. Especially recently. How annoying is that feeling of immense anxiety hijacking your body because you are in you unlucky streak of events? Those situations where you know you can't do anything in the world to get that last handful of vocabulary words crammed into the last empty space in your brain, to memorize those two formulas that are of vital importance but you don't know half the symbols it includes. Yes, I have been in a situation where I have felt unprepared. And, yes, I am still going to be in those situations; just thinking about them causes an uneasy feeling in my stomach.

I have been sick and missed school. Days, where all I did was sleep, wake up to eat, wake up because of guilt of not doing your school work, attempting to be productive, getting a headache and going back to sleep - and of coarse tons and tons of tissues and coughing in the mean time. And then, when you get back to school you have five hundred tests to make up for, late assignments due and missing homework. The overwhelming feeling that is latched onto feeling unprepared as a counter-reaction might actually be just as bad.

Or working on perfecting a several-paged-assignment late into the night, then that huge grin comes on your face when you slam your finger into that last full stop on your keyboard. Your drag your mouse and hover it over the 'save' button, you exhale from relief - but then..........your computer crashes!! And you lose ALL. YOUR. WORK. Yes, that I have been through as well.

And many other dreadful times like these, but it is something that comes with being a person that does something, whether it's going to school or work or anything.

I think the worst thing about this, though, is that waaaay too many teachers greet you with "I don't wanna hear it." Every excuse, in my opinion, should be listened to because the bugging feeling you get, when you KNOW that your excuse is valid and there was no way around it but you just keeping getting the 'shush' hand shoved in your face, is too irritating to ask of anyone.